Because she's not cut out for battle and leaving her by herself was a stupid idea. I'm not I don't know what else you want me to say, Zelos. I get it. I get that I did something stupid by leaving her there and trying to fight without her but She wouldn't let me go alone, what was I supposed to It was just a bad idea. I got it. It's not happening again. Kels and I already talked and apologized, we're okay again. And I don't know why I don't get it. I don't get why you got so mad about it.
[Well. He had it. And now he's just spinning it because this is not entirely his fault.]
Because I love my world. And I'm sure there's people who love this world as much as I love mine. So I wanna do what I can to protect both of them from this war.
You have this need to prove yourself, I can get that. But you can't just...run around and forget what's truly important to you because some fairies said you're special.
Because you could end up losing everything if you lose sight of that stuff. And I don't want to see that happen. Not over some fairies that tell everyone they're special.
[There's a long pause on his end. He doesn't believe Ryan is right about how he's not going to lose anything. Not even for any reason specifically to Ryan- but that's just how these things go. Wars cause loss. But...he gets the distinct feeling that Ryan won't listen, not until he actually learns things the hard way. Since hey, it's not like he listens to him all that much about anything else]
[But he's glad this is text now. So Ryan can't see the sad look on his face when he responds]
I'll pray for your sake, you can keep that promise.
[As for the special thing? Zelos badly wants to ask why. Nothing has ever good from being special. But right, different lives- different perspectives]
Well...then I'd say Kelsi already seems to think you're special, so I don't see why you'd need the fairies to get that.
[NO. LAME. There's a surprised pause since he wasn't expecting that]
[Then he gives a little sigh]
You're still hung up on the angel thing, aren't you?
But fine. There's really not much to it. Just that...frankly? I've done the "special" thing. And...well, frankly I found that having the people I care about finding me special and worthwhile being...way more worthwhile.
Maybe. [Of course he's still hung up on the angel thing.]
...it's. [He gets what Zelos is saying, really he does, but he's trying to hold his tongue instead of stomping his feet and insisting that it's different for him and Sharpay.
Mostly because, well, this isn't about Sharpay right now. It's just about him. And that's the problem.]
Kelsi's my best friend, she's sort of obligated to tell me I'm special. [It's just about Kelsi right now.] I want to earn it though.
[And he snorts] Are you kidding? No she's not- my best friend's always one of the first to tell me when I'm being stupid or a jackass. [THE HONESTY IS PART OF WHAT HE DIGS HIM FOR; a pause] ...If that's what you want, you will.
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Sure. Did you wanna meet up or just talk over this?
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[There's a long pause between messages.]
I guess I just wanted to say that you were right. And...I'm sorry.
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Chickenwuss.]For?
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It's more than that, Ryan.
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I'm not
I don't know what else you want me to say, Zelos. I get it. I get that I did something stupid by leaving her there and trying to fight without her but
She wouldn't let me go alone, what was I supposed to
It was just a bad idea. I got it. It's not happening again.
Kels and I already talked and apologized, we're okay again.
And I don't know why
I don't get it. I don't get why you got so mad about it.
[Well. He had it. And now he's just spinning it because this is not entirely his fault.]
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Let me frame it in a different way:
Why do you fight, Ryan?
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Because I love my world. And I'm sure there's people who love this world as much as I love mine. So I wanna do what I can to protect both of them from this war.
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You have this need to prove yourself, I can get that. But you can't just...run around and forget what's truly important to you because some fairies said you're special.
Because you could end up losing everything if you lose sight of that stuff. And I don't want to see that happen. Not over some fairies that tell everyone they're special.
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[Another pause.]
I'm not doing this because the fairies said I'm special, you know. You really think that's what this is about?
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But...I've seen this kind of stuff before. So I can't help but worry.
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Besides, what if being special is what's truly important to me? Hypothetically.
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[But he's glad this is text now. So Ryan can't see the sad look on his face when he responds]
I'll pray for your sake, you can keep that promise.
[As for the special thing? Zelos badly wants to ask why. Nothing has ever good from being special. But right, different lives- different perspectives]
Well...then I'd say Kelsi already seems to think you're special, so I don't see why you'd need the fairies to get that.
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Wait what does what Kelsi thinks have to do with this? I mean her opinion counts don't get me wrong but...???
[Multiple question marks. Kelsi's his best friend. Why's Zelos bringing it up?]
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This might be a lesson for another day.
[Power of friendship is a long and powerful lesson!!]
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No! No more "another day" stuff, Zelos! [Secrets are not okay, the end.]
You keep not telling me things and...it's not fair. So can't you just tell me this one thing? ...please?
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[Then he gives a little sigh]
You're still hung up on the angel thing, aren't you?
But fine. There's really not much to it. Just that...frankly? I've done the "special" thing. And...well, frankly I found that having the people I care about finding me special and worthwhile being...way more worthwhile.
That's all. It's kinda cheesy, I know.
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...it's. [He gets what Zelos is saying, really he does, but he's trying to hold his tongue instead of stomping his feet and insisting that it's different for him and Sharpay.
Mostly because, well, this isn't about Sharpay right now. It's just about him. And that's the problem.]
Kelsi's my best friend, she's sort of obligated to tell me I'm special. [It's just about Kelsi right now.] I want to earn it though.
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[Because seriously man you clearly are!!]
[And he snorts] Are you kidding? No she's not- my best friend's always one of the first to tell me when I'm being stupid or a jackass. [THE HONESTY IS PART OF WHAT HE DIGS HIM FOR; a pause] ...If that's what you want, you will.
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