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And why was it a bad idea?

Because trees aren't safe hiding places and leaving her without an escort was basically throwing her to the wolves. I won't do it again.

[You can almost hear the sigh on his end]

It's more than that, Ryan.

Because she's not cut out for battle and leaving her by herself was a stupid idea. I'm not I don't know what else you want me to say, Zelos. I get it. I get that I did something stupid by leaving her there and trying to fight without her but She wouldn't let me go alone, what was I supposed to It was just a bad idea. I got it. It's not happening again. Kels and I already talked and apologized, we're okay again. And I don't know why I don't get it. I don't get why you got so mad about it.

[Well. He had it. And now he's just spinning it because this is not entirely his fault.]

[There's a pause]

Let me frame it in a different way:

Why do you fight, Ryan?

Because I'm here. Why do YOU?

[There's another pause before he responds]

Because I love my world. And I'm sure there's people who love this world as much as I love mine. So I wanna do what I can to protect both of them from this war.

...they brought me here to help. I'm going to fight if that's what it takes to help this world. Why's that such a bad thing?

Because I'm worried about you.

You have this need to prove yourself, I can get that. But you can't just...run around and forget what's truly important to you because some fairies said you're special.

Because you could end up losing everything if you lose sight of that stuff. And I don't want to see that happen. Not over some fairies that tell everyone they're special.

Okay that's a valid point.

[Another pause.]

I'm not doing this because the fairies said I'm special, you know. You really think that's what this is about?

I don't know. Believe it or not, mind reading's not one of my powers.

But...I've seen this kind of stuff before. So I can't help but worry.

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It's not going to be the same with me okay? I promise. I'm not going to lose anything. Besides, what if being special is what's truly important to me? Hypothetically.

[There's a long pause on his end. He doesn't believe Ryan is right about how he's not going to lose anything. Not even for any reason specifically to Ryan- but that's just how these things go. Wars cause loss. But...he gets the distinct feeling that Ryan won't listen, not until he actually learns things the hard way. Since hey, it's not like he listens to him all that much about anything else]

[But he's glad this is text now. So Ryan can't see the sad look on his face when he responds]

I'll pray for your sake, you can keep that promise.

[As for the special thing? Zelos badly wants to ask why. Nothing has ever good from being special. But right, different lives- different perspectives]

Well...then I'd say Kelsi already seems to think you're special, so I don't see why you'd need the fairies to get that.

[He gets that he just missed the big picture, again. But...wait a sec.]

Wait what does what Kelsi thinks have to do with this? I mean her opinion counts don't get me wrong but...???

[Multiple question marks. Kelsi's his best friend. Why's Zelos bringing it up?]

Hmmm.

This might be a lesson for another day.

[Power of friendship is a long and powerful lesson!!]

[Surprise motherfucker.]

No! No more "another day" stuff, Zelos! [Secrets are not okay, the end.]

You keep not telling me things and...it's not fair. So can't you just tell me this one thing? ...please?

[NO. LAME. There's a surprised pause since he wasn't expecting that]

[Then he gives a little sigh]

You're still hung up on the angel thing, aren't you?

But fine. There's really not much to it. Just that...frankly? I've done the "special" thing. And...well, frankly I found that having the people I care about finding me special and worthwhile being...way more worthwhile.

That's all. It's kinda cheesy, I know.

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Maybe. [Of course he's still hung up on the angel thing.]

...it's. [He gets what Zelos is saying, really he does, but he's trying to hold his tongue instead of stomping his feet and insisting that it's different for him and Sharpay.

Mostly because, well, this isn't about Sharpay right now. It's just about him. And that's the problem.]

Kelsi's my best friend, she's sort of obligated to tell me I'm special. [It's just about Kelsi right now.] I want to earn it though.

By maybe, do you mean yes?

[Because seriously man you clearly are!!]

[And he snorts] Are you kidding? No she's not- my best friend's always one of the first to tell me when I'm being stupid or a jackass. [THE HONESTY IS PART OF WHAT HE DIGS HIM FOR; a pause] ...If that's what you want, you will.

Maybe. [Stubborn. So painfully stubborn. You and your stupid angel wings man 8|]

Sure she is. She's obligated to tell me I'm special in the same way she's obligated to tell me my yoga pants don't make my ass look huge when they obviously do and the same way she's obligated to watch me rehearse for hours and she's obligated to listen to me talk about Ch--chasse reverse turns and a bunch of other stuff she doesn't have to worry about. [That is to say he knows she's not obligated at all.] But she does and I love her for it. That's exactly why I love her like I do. [And then of course there's the other part...]

Let me ask you something, Zelos. And be honest with me. Do you really think I can do this?

[He is so rolling eyes at that maybe. So damn stubborn]

That's...sweet? [He thinks? Sounds like a lot of rules for friends gosh] I think I'll just stick to my best friend.

[And there's a pause. God, he's usually not the one they ask for praise]

...I think you still have a long way to go. Physically and emotionally. There's a lot of stuff you still gotta learn.

But...yeah. I do.

[He can almost hear that thought, or maybe he's just feeling a little sheepish.] ...you kind of have to put up with a lot if you want to be friends with us. [Us, of course, being Sharpay and himself.] Kelsi's been a really good sport about it considering she's spent the last four years before college being bullied by my sister. And maybe that's why I thought she could handle it on her own and why I stuck her in a tree. Make more sense?

[Congratulations Zelos there's a first time for everything. There's a snort though.] Think that falls under mentally. I'm emotionally fine. But...thanks.

I'm going to ask them for something else just in case my powers go out again. I'm going to get better at this but--and I mean you're an angel, I'm pretty sure you won't get it, but I have to prove that I can keep up with everybody else. So it kinda means a lot that somebody believes it.

Still wish you'd told me that in the first place though. Holds a lot more weight now.

That...you equate putting up with your sister to being in the middle of a war zone? Yeah, sure. Makes lots of sense.

[Never wants to meet that sister, sheesh. And ha. Yeah no, he definitely thinks emotionally too. But what's saying that?]

[And there's another pause at that. Not so sure he likes some of the implications there, but he's been Chosen long enough now that he can just remain neutral about them]

...I had my reasons for keeping it quiet. And as for asking them for something, it's like I told you before- it's your own choice if you go to them. Just be careful.

Sharpay's Sharpay. [The shrug is nearly audible.] Either get on her good side or have her rain down on you like a ton of pink sparkly bricks. She's really good at negotiations though. [More like being a manipulative bitch, but lalala whatever.] Kelsi used to be intimidated by me, too. Funny how things change isn't it? I don't think she's afraid of Shar anymore but if she were here I don't think Kelsi would be too happy.

[What the fuck are you talking about Ryan, that's not the point of this conversation.]

I'm sure you did. [Whether they're good reasons or not, well, it's debatable.] It's fine. I've got my own secrets here, too. I get it. [There's a short pause though.] I know. I know, I'll be more careful. I think I've got it all planned out this time so there aren't any loopholes.

…so…I know I said sorry, but did I say thank you yet?

[....] ...Somehow I get the feeling there wouldn't be many that'd be too happy if Sharpay was here. [since seriously, she sounds a little, uh, crazy]

Yeah? Do I get to hear some of those secrets? [Not that he really cares that much, but you know, if you're gonna act like it's such a crime he didn't tell you about being an angel...!] Good. Make sure it's as tight as you can make it.

Huh? Thank you for what?

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