[There's a long pause on his end. He doesn't believe Ryan is right about how he's not going to lose anything. Not even for any reason specifically to Ryan- but that's just how these things go. Wars cause loss. But...he gets the distinct feeling that Ryan won't listen, not until he actually learns things the hard way. Since hey, it's not like he listens to him all that much about anything else]
[But he's glad this is text now. So Ryan can't see the sad look on his face when he responds]
I'll pray for your sake, you can keep that promise.
[As for the special thing? Zelos badly wants to ask why. Nothing has ever good from being special. But right, different lives- different perspectives]
Well...then I'd say Kelsi already seems to think you're special, so I don't see why you'd need the fairies to get that.
[NO. LAME. There's a surprised pause since he wasn't expecting that]
[Then he gives a little sigh]
You're still hung up on the angel thing, aren't you?
But fine. There's really not much to it. Just that...frankly? I've done the "special" thing. And...well, frankly I found that having the people I care about finding me special and worthwhile being...way more worthwhile.
Maybe. [Of course he's still hung up on the angel thing.]
...it's. [He gets what Zelos is saying, really he does, but he's trying to hold his tongue instead of stomping his feet and insisting that it's different for him and Sharpay.
Mostly because, well, this isn't about Sharpay right now. It's just about him. And that's the problem.]
Kelsi's my best friend, she's sort of obligated to tell me I'm special. [It's just about Kelsi right now.] I want to earn it though.
[And he snorts] Are you kidding? No she's not- my best friend's always one of the first to tell me when I'm being stupid or a jackass. [THE HONESTY IS PART OF WHAT HE DIGS HIM FOR; a pause] ...If that's what you want, you will.
Maybe. [Stubborn. So painfully stubborn. You and your stupid angel wings man 8|]
Sure she is. She's obligated to tell me I'm special in the same way she's obligated to tell me my yoga pants don't make my ass look huge when they obviously do and the same way she's obligated to watch me rehearse for hours and she's obligated to listen to me talk about Ch--chasse reverse turns and a bunch of other stuff she doesn't have to worry about. [That is to say he knows she's not obligated at all.] But she does and I love her for it. That's exactly why I love her like I do. [And then of course there's the other part...]
Let me ask you something, Zelos. And be honest with me. Do you really think I can do this?
[He can almost hear that thought, or maybe he's just feeling a little sheepish.] ...you kind of have to put up with a lot if you want to be friends with us. [Us, of course, being Sharpay and himself.] Kelsi's been a really good sport about it considering she's spent the last four years before college being bullied by my sister. And maybe that's why I thought she could handle it on her own and why I stuck her in a tree. Make more sense?
[Congratulations Zelos there's a first time for everything. There's a snort though.] Think that falls under mentally. I'm emotionally fine. But...thanks.
I'm going to ask them for something else just in case my powers go out again. I'm going to get better at this but--and I mean you're an angel, I'm pretty sure you won't get it, but I have to prove that I can keep up with everybody else. So it kinda means a lot that somebody believes it.
Still wish you'd told me that in the first place though. Holds a lot more weight now.
That...you equate putting up with your sister to being in the middle of a war zone? Yeah, sure. Makes lots of sense.
[Never wants to meet that sister, sheesh. And ha. Yeah no, he definitely thinks emotionally too. But what's saying that?]
[And there's another pause at that. Not so sure he likes some of the implications there, but he's been Chosen long enough now that he can just remain neutral about them]
...I had my reasons for keeping it quiet. And as for asking them for something, it's like I told you before- it's your own choice if you go to them. Just be careful.
Sharpay's Sharpay. [The shrug is nearly audible.] Either get on her good side or have her rain down on you like a ton of pink sparkly bricks. She's really good at negotiations though. [More like being a manipulative bitch, but lalala whatever.] Kelsi used to be intimidated by me, too. Funny how things change isn't it? I don't think she's afraid of Shar anymore but if she were here I don't think Kelsi would be too happy.
[What the fuck are you talking about Ryan, that's not the point of this conversation.]
I'm sure you did. [Whether they're good reasons or not, well, it's debatable.] It's fine. I've got my own secrets here, too. I get it. [There's a short pause though.] I know. I know, I'll be more careful. I think I've got it all planned out this time so there aren't any loopholes.
…so…I know I said sorry, but did I say thank you yet?
[....] ...Somehow I get the feeling there wouldn't be many that'd be too happy if Sharpay was here. [since seriously, she sounds a little, uh, crazy]
Yeah? Do I get to hear some of those secrets? [Not that he really cares that much, but you know, if you're gonna act like it's such a crime he didn't tell you about being an angel...!] Good. Make sure it's as tight as you can make it.
Between you and me? I'm not even sure how happy I'd be if she were here.
I don't think they're really worth disclosing. They don't really...[He just sort of makes a weird sound as if he's saying "never mind".] It doesn't change my fighting style or anything and this whole conversation just got really awkward so never mind, the point I get it. [Change the subject Ryan you're getting way too comfortable here.] This is where I kind of wish I had our family lawyer around to look these things over. But I think I got it. It's going to help a lot though, wait 'til you see it.
Is that bad? I mean she's my sister, I should be happy if she does show up even if this place isn't that great but she's...Sharpay's...I dunno. I think she's kind of still mad at me a little bit.
Exactly. [Goddamnit Zelos.] Your secrets kind of have a huge impact on everybody. Mine just make people uncomfortable. That's the difference.
What? No, of course not, are you kidding me? I've never done chores before, I still didn't know what I was doing. But I meant like...you're right. I probably would have kept going if I wasn't banished or whatever and that wasn't what Kelsi needed at the moment. So. I'm going to say this once and that's it.
I'm sort of used to it though. Sharpay and I--this is literally the longest we've ever been apart. And then I went home and then I got into Juilliard and she didn't and she got kinda really mad and now we're mostly okay but we're still 2000 miles apart and it's weird so. Whatever. She's not as bad as she seems though.
[Sharpay's complicated.] Like I said you being an angel holds a lot more weight in the whole "thou shall not ask stupid questions and get magic you can't handle because dire consequences" thing. If I said the same thing to you, would you listen to me? I don't think so.
No, why? [Serious question.] Our staff takes care of everything.
I'll take your word for it. But no, I don't think it's necessarily a bad thing you wouldn't be happy if she was here.
[Because siblings. Are complicated. And oh. Oh. There are so many things he finds wrong with that kind of sentiment (not to mention he's willing to call bullshit on). It's not the first time he's heard something like that, and hearing that Ryan was rich enough to have staff to do all his chores? Makes it all make sense.]
[But he decides to be neutral, as he is with many people.]
...I didn't realize you were the religious type.
[Lightly] And it's just surprising, that's all. I didn't think you were rich enough to have staff.
[There's complicated, and then there's the Evans twins and it's obvious from the way he drops the subject like a sack of potatoes. Still. He's not sure what to make of that next comment so there's a pause and he's suddenly laughing.]
Um. I'm not. Kind of the opposite actually, I guess. But I recognize higher powers and that's what angels are, aren't they? In a way.
[…oh right. The whole rich people thing. He stops laughing and just sort of sounds a little more thoughtful now.]
My parents have a lot of enterprises around the world. And we own a country club in Albuquerque that earns a lot in membership dues so…[Soooo yeah. That's a thing.] We've had a staff since Shar and I were born. It helped a lot since we spent most of our time in rehearsals anyway.
[Then...why would you listen to an angel? Jeez kid]
You mean the whole thing about them being in heaven and working as servants of the godde- higher power? Yeah, sure- that's true. [Maybe not so much, but he's not gonna say that] But I'm not exactly that kind of angel.
[And that just sounds like what Regal has. Maybe lower than that, and definitely lower than his family. Okay then.]
No it's just like...the whole thing about them being able to control things out of human hands. If you want to call it being a servant, sure, but even angels have the ability to make choices, right? That's why angels and angels of death exist. [Ryan what?] What kind of angel are you then?
[A snort.] I know. I kind of haven't told anybody...and I sort of want to keep it that way? If that's okay.
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[Another pause.]
I'm not doing this because the fairies said I'm special, you know. You really think that's what this is about?
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But...I've seen this kind of stuff before. So I can't help but worry.
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Besides, what if being special is what's truly important to me? Hypothetically.
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[But he's glad this is text now. So Ryan can't see the sad look on his face when he responds]
I'll pray for your sake, you can keep that promise.
[As for the special thing? Zelos badly wants to ask why. Nothing has ever good from being special. But right, different lives- different perspectives]
Well...then I'd say Kelsi already seems to think you're special, so I don't see why you'd need the fairies to get that.
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Wait what does what Kelsi thinks have to do with this? I mean her opinion counts don't get me wrong but...???
[Multiple question marks. Kelsi's his best friend. Why's Zelos bringing it up?]
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This might be a lesson for another day.
[Power of friendship is a long and powerful lesson!!]
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No! No more "another day" stuff, Zelos! [Secrets are not okay, the end.]
You keep not telling me things and...it's not fair. So can't you just tell me this one thing? ...please?
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[Then he gives a little sigh]
You're still hung up on the angel thing, aren't you?
But fine. There's really not much to it. Just that...frankly? I've done the "special" thing. And...well, frankly I found that having the people I care about finding me special and worthwhile being...way more worthwhile.
That's all. It's kinda cheesy, I know.
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...it's. [He gets what Zelos is saying, really he does, but he's trying to hold his tongue instead of stomping his feet and insisting that it's different for him and Sharpay.
Mostly because, well, this isn't about Sharpay right now. It's just about him. And that's the problem.]
Kelsi's my best friend, she's sort of obligated to tell me I'm special. [It's just about Kelsi right now.] I want to earn it though.
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[Because seriously man you clearly are!!]
[And he snorts] Are you kidding? No she's not- my best friend's always one of the first to tell me when I'm being stupid or a jackass. [THE HONESTY IS PART OF WHAT HE DIGS HIM FOR; a pause] ...If that's what you want, you will.
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Sure she is. She's obligated to tell me I'm special in the same way she's obligated to tell me my yoga pants don't make my ass look huge when they obviously do and the same way she's obligated to watch me rehearse for hours and she's obligated to listen to me talk about Ch--chasse reverse turns and a bunch of other stuff she doesn't have to worry about. [That is to say he knows she's not obligated at all.] But she does and I love her for it. That's exactly why I love her like I do. [And then of course there's the other part...]
Let me ask you something, Zelos. And be honest with me. Do you really think I can do this?
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That's...sweet? [He thinks? Sounds like a lot of rules for friends gosh] I think I'll just stick to my best friend.
[And there's a pause. God, he's usually not the one they ask for praise]
...I think you still have a long way to go. Physically and emotionally. There's a lot of stuff you still gotta learn.
But...yeah. I do.
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[Congratulations Zelos there's a first time for everything. There's a snort though.] Think that falls under mentally. I'm emotionally fine. But...thanks.
I'm going to ask them for something else just in case my powers go out again. I'm going to get better at this but--and I mean you're an angel, I'm pretty sure you won't get it, but I have to prove that I can keep up with everybody else. So it kinda means a lot that somebody believes it.
Still wish you'd told me that in the first place though. Holds a lot more weight now.
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[Never wants to meet that sister, sheesh. And ha. Yeah no, he definitely thinks emotionally too. But what's saying that?]
[And there's another pause at that. Not so sure he likes some of the implications there, but he's been Chosen long enough now that he can just remain neutral about them]
...I had my reasons for keeping it quiet. And as for asking them for something, it's like I told you before- it's your own choice if you go to them. Just be careful.
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[What the fuck are you talking about Ryan, that's not the point of this conversation.]
I'm sure you did. [Whether they're good reasons or not, well, it's debatable.] It's fine. I've got my own secrets here, too. I get it. [There's a short pause though.] I know. I know, I'll be more careful. I think I've got it all planned out this time so there aren't any loopholes.
…so…I know I said sorry, but did I say thank you yet?
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Yeah? Do I get to hear some of those secrets? [Not that he really cares that much, but you know, if you're gonna act like it's such a crime he didn't tell you about being an angel...!] Good. Make sure it's as tight as you can make it.
Huh? Thank you for what?
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I don't think they're really worth disclosing. They don't really...[He just sort of makes a weird sound as if he's saying "never mind".] It doesn't change my fighting style or anything and this whole conversation just got really awkward so never mind, the point I get it. [Change the subject Ryan you're getting way too comfortable here.] This is where I kind of wish I had our family lawyer around to look these things over. But I think I got it. It's going to help a lot though, wait 'til you see it.
...you know. For...grounding me, I guess.
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Oh, so- my secrets are worth disclosing, but yours aren't? [This is might be karma showing up in the form of a big bitch, per usual Ryan]
...What? Did you like doing chores or something?
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Exactly. [Goddamnit Zelos.] Your secrets kind of have a huge impact on everybody. Mine just make people uncomfortable. That's the difference.
What? No, of course not, are you kidding me? I've never done chores before, I still didn't know what I was doing. But I meant like...you're right. I probably would have kept going if I wasn't banished or whatever and that wasn't what Kelsi needed at the moment. So. I'm going to say this once and that's it.
You were right, I was wrong.
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[He wouldn't even know what to do if any of his family showed up, living or dead]
Hmmm...I still fail to see what meaningful difference it makes on everyone whether or not they think I'm a human or an angel.
[If anything, Ryan knowing is proving to be a real pain in the ass]
Well, that's nice to hear you admit that but- seriously? You've never done chores before?
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[Sharpay's complicated.] Like I said you being an angel holds a lot more weight in the whole "thou shall not ask stupid questions and get magic you can't handle because dire consequences" thing. If I said the same thing to you, would you listen to me? I don't think so.
No, why? [Serious question.] Our staff takes care of everything.
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[Because siblings. Are complicated. And oh. Oh. There are so many things he finds wrong with that kind of sentiment (not to mention he's willing to call bullshit on). It's not the first time he's heard something like that, and hearing that Ryan was rich enough to have staff to do all his chores? Makes it all make sense.]
[But he decides to be neutral, as he is with many people.]
...I didn't realize you were the religious type.
[Lightly] And it's just surprising, that's all. I didn't think you were rich enough to have staff.
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[There's complicated, and then there's the Evans twins and it's obvious from the way he drops the subject like a sack of potatoes. Still. He's not sure what to make of that next comment so there's a pause and he's suddenly laughing.]
Um. I'm not. Kind of the opposite actually, I guess. But I recognize higher powers and that's what angels are, aren't they? In a way.
[…oh right. The whole rich people thing. He stops laughing and just sort of sounds a little more thoughtful now.]
My parents have a lot of enterprises around the world. And we own a country club in Albuquerque that earns a lot in membership dues so…[Soooo yeah. That's a thing.] We've had a staff since Shar and I were born. It helped a lot since we spent most of our time in rehearsals anyway.
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You mean the whole thing about them being in heaven and working as servants of the godde- higher power? Yeah, sure- that's true. [Maybe not so much, but he's not gonna say that] But I'm not exactly that kind of angel.
[And that just sounds like what Regal has. Maybe lower than that, and definitely lower than his family. Okay then.]
Oh, I see. I didn't know.
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No it's just like...the whole thing about them being able to control things out of human hands. If you want to call it being a servant, sure, but even angels have the ability to make choices, right? That's why angels and angels of death exist. [Ryan what?] What kind of angel are you then?
[A snort.] I know. I kind of haven't told anybody...and I sort of want to keep it that way? If that's okay.
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