wilder | exsilium ☼ IC Contact Post ☼ 2012-2013

"Yo. Leave a message."

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LITTLE WOLF	What are you doing? (2)	November 6, 2013
RIKU	Maybe this is nothing. (2)	October 29th, 2013
ASCH KETCHUM	'Isofons'. It's pronounced 'isofons'. (2)	October 25th, 2013
LITTLE WOLF	That's for you! (133)	October 24th, 2013
LITTLE WOLF	are you busy (32)	October 20th, 2013
FLORA	Hey, Kaneis. I really hope... (32)	October 14th, 2013
VICTORIA GUILDFORD	Master Kaneis, my apologies for... (20)	October 10th, 2013
RIKU	Hey, Doctor Kaneis. (24)	September 29th, 2013
ASBEL LHANT	Hey Kaneis. It's Asbel. (18)	September 23rd, 2013
CAT, ALLEN WALKER	No Subject (35)	September 22nd, 2013
VICTORIA CRAWFORD	Hey, Kaneis! What's up? (14)	August 23rd, 2013
ALLEN WALKER	Kaneis, are you in the apartment? (42)	August 18th, 2013
HOWARD LINK	To residents of apartment 103... (4)	August 4th, 2013
CAT	when you come bring back milk (40)	August 3rd, 2013
EMIL CASTAGNIER	Hi, Kaneis. I bumped into somebody... (20)	August 2nd, 2013
SELES WILDER	Zelos, I wanted to apologize... (55)	July 24th, 2013
EMIL CASTAGNIER	I...can I ask you for a favor? (13)	July 6th, 2013
ASCH KETCHUM	Everything alright down there? (10)	June 23rd, 2013
NILL	are you ok? (41)	June 18th, 2013
SELES WILDER	No Subject (21)	June 8th, 2013
CAT	I have it. Do you want... (91)	May 28th, 2013
ANONYMOUS	Young male in 409 requiring assistance. (8)	April 18th, 2013
VICTORIA CRAWFORD	Uh... hey, Kaneis. About last night... (30)	February 15th, 2013
SHEENA FUJIBAYASHI	Hey, it's me. (2)	February 11th, 2013
KRATOS AURION	This is Kratos. (73)	December 23rd, 2012

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ASBEL LHANT	Listen...when you got a moment... (23)	November 14th, 2013
ALLEN WALKER	I have a favor to ask... (68)	August 12th, 2013
SHEENA FUJIBAYASHI	No Subject (29)	August 9th, 2013
ALLEN WALKER	Allen! Allen! Allen! (47)	August 3rd, 2013
ALLEN WALKER	Cheria and I are going to a Realm of Shadows... (13)	July 13th, 2013
CHERIA BARNES	Look, I know I'd said I'd cover dinner...	July 13th, 2013
SHEENA FUJIBAYASHI	Weird question, but- (29)	July 5th, 2013
EMIL CASTAGNIER	Yo Emil! You there? (49)	June 24th, 2013
SELES WILDER	Hey my little sister, it's me. (49)	June 5th, 2013
SHEENA FUJIBAYASHI	Heeey Sheena! You there hunny? (82)	June 2nd, 2013
GUY CECIL	Hey, it's Kaneis. Are you still up... (12)	May 29th, 2013
ASCH KETCHUM	Hey Asch, it's Kaneis. You there? (21)	April 23rd, 2013
SHEENA FUJIBAYASHI	Mithos is here. (13)	February 3rd, 2013

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Whoa hey- it's got nothing to do with not liking or respecting you!

It's just... [Ugh, he has to give a sincere answer, he hates doing that. He rather just avoid.]

I know what you're saying makes sense logically. Okay? I do. But...I've heard it the other way so long, that even if I understand the logic, it's hard to shake the feelings that what those...[he hesitates, but in the end he can't even bring himself to insult them] those other people have said might be right.

Does that make sense?

[ okay hackles down. ]

I know. I've heard it myself. [ she shrugs faintly, a trace of a smile on her face. ] You'll have to get used to hearing the opposite from me.

You bad luck? No way- you're not even a black cat!

Gonna be stubborn about it, huh?

[ she makes a moue as she reaches for a bottle of water. blasé enough to sound almost bored, she explains, ] Not bad luck. Hopeless, worthless, I'll never be good enough. I'm a beast, and I'll be put down like one.

[ wolf bitch had been the one she heard most often: do you know what dogs do to a wolf? ]

Can you get this open?

[And Zelos, sadly, knows too well what that sort of tone really means] Well that stuff's clearly a bunch of garbage.

[And he holds his hand out]

Sure.

[ she lets him have it. ]

Thank you.

[he unscrews the cap and hands it back to her]

You do know that stuff's not true, right?

One of them is.

[ she's a wolf, and her dreams are filled with with teeth and blood. but cat only keeps company with wolves. cat never had a wolf; cat died. she holds the bottle with both hands and takes a drink. ]

Which one?

[ she glances at him, lowering the bottle. ]

I did die.

[he'll look at her for a moment, as if studying, thinking. And then, very calmly]

No you didn't.

[And sure is returning to his meal]

I did. Why would anyone lie about that?

Oh, for all sorts of reasons I'd imagine. Profit, attention, or maybe it's just easier to think of yourself as dead. Or maybe something else. [he shrugs]

I profit nothing and I don't want attention. [ she's not a child!! ]

I dunno...you seem to be able to get Allen wrapped around your little finger whenever you want. That's a profit.

Of course, it could be that last one too. With how you are, I'd imagine your life buys hardship in bulk.

[ arya removes cat's face. she had been pretending when she first spoke to zelos. pretending to be happier, more normal, more a young girl.

she isn't now.

arya is simultaneously younger and older than her masks. solemn and tired and her eyes too dark and too flat for anyone, much less a child. tension lies coiled into her muscles. she does not need to tell her history to have it be known; it's inscribed into her skin, marked indelibly for the ones who know how to see.

a pretty child with pretty eyes and a wretch.

she picks up his tablet where it lies on the table. though she looks to be simply playing with it, she goes exactly where she needs to switch off the translator. she puts on her best aselian to say: ] Cat is dead. [ every one of her lies is deeply rooted in truth. it is how she can maintain them.

then she turns it back on and leaves it on her lap. ]

You told me you did not want to know about me. Did you change your mind?

[Zelos isn't surprised to see the face come off. The less happy face. Chosens were masters at putting on a happier face than what they truly felt. Only after he was revived did he start trying out real expressions. People might call him dishonest for his name and claim to be a mercenary, but in truth? Kaneis, even as a fake identity, was more honest than Zelos ever was]

[Maybe it was one of the things that tipped him off about Arya. The dead didn't care enough to lie as much as she did. Since hey, what could happen? They'd become more dead? ]

[The words on the tablet catches his eye, he ponders them. Was there another Cat that was dead? Did she take someone else's name? It's hard for him to tell]

[But her last statement makes him pause. He thinks it over. Knowing more might lead to pain, but at the same time...]

...The last time I choose to listen to lies and ignore the truth, it hurt people I care about...and myself.

So...yeah. I guess I did change my mind.

[ i use the name of a dead woman because i thought it fitting, she told him once. she smiles at the tablet and returns it to zelos. ]

Not here. [ smiles must come at her bidding. she flashes a great one. ] You'll have to take me fishing. You promised.

Right, right fishing.

We'll go, and then you can tell me stuff there. Promise.

[ she pulls up her feet into the seat and slings her arms loosely around her legs. her chin is propped on her knees. ]

You haven't said if you like it. [ all the accusatory tone is missing is a pointed finger. she cooked, where's the praise? ]