exsilium ☼ IC Contact Post ☼ 2012-2013

[wilder]

"Yo. Leave a message."

FROM: SUBJECT: DATE: LITTLE WOLF What are you doing? (2) November 6, 2013 RIKU Maybe this is nothing. (2) October 29th, 2013 ASCH KETCHUM 'Isofons'. It's pronounced 'isofons'. (2) October 25th, 2013 LITTLE WOLF That's for you! (133) October 24th, 2013 LITTLE WOLF are you busy (32) October 20th, 2013 FLORA Hey, Kaneis. I really hope... (32) October 14th, 2013 VICTORIA GUILDFORD Master Kaneis, my apologies for... (20) October 10th, 2013 RIKU Hey, Doctor Kaneis. (24) September 29th, 2013 ASBEL LHANT Hey Kaneis. It's Asbel. (18) September 23rd, 2013 CAT, ALLEN WALKER No Subject (35) September 22nd, 2013 VICTORIA CRAWFORD Hey, Kaneis! What's up? (14) August 23rd, 2013 ALLEN WALKER Kaneis, are you in the apartment? (42) August 18th, 2013 HOWARD LINK To residents of apartment 103... (4) August 4th, 2013 CAT when you come bring back milk (40) August 3rd, 2013 EMIL CASTAGNIER Hi, Kaneis. I bumped into somebody... (20) August 2nd, 2013 SELES WILDER Zelos, I wanted to apologize... (55) July 24th, 2013 EMIL CASTAGNIER I...can I ask you for a favor? (13) July 6th, 2013 ASCH KETCHUM Everything alright down there? (10) June 23rd, 2013 NILL are you ok? (41) June 18th, 2013 SELES WILDER No Subject (21) June 8th, 2013 CAT I have it. Do you want... (91) May 28th, 2013 ANONYMOUS Young male in 409 requiring assistance. (8) April 18th, 2013 VICTORIA CRAWFORD Uh... hey, Kaneis. About last night... (30) February 15th, 2013 SHEENA FUJIBAYASHI Hey, it's me. (2) February 11th, 2013 KRATOS AURION This is Kratos. (73) December 23rd, 2012 There are 3 unfinished conversations.

TO: SUBJECT: DATE: ASBEL LHANT Listen...when you got a moment... (23) November 14th, 2013 ALLEN WALKER I have a favor to ask... (68) August 12th, 2013 SHEENA FUJIBAYASHI No Subject (29) August 9th, 2013 ALLEN WALKER Allen! Allen! Allen! (47) August 3rd, 2013 ALLEN WALKER Cheria and I are going to a Realm of Shadows... (13) July 13th, 2013 CHERIA BARNES Look, I know I'd said I'd cover dinner... July 13th, 2013 SHEENA FUJIBAYASHI Weird question, but- (29) July 5th, 2013 EMIL CASTAGNIER Yo Emil! You there? (49) June 24th, 2013 SELES WILDER Hey my little sister, it's me. (49) June 5th, 2013 SHEENA FUJIBAYASHI Heeey Sheena! You there hunny? (82) June 2nd, 2013 GUY CECIL Hey, it's Kaneis. Are you still up... (12) May 29th, 2013 ASCH KETCHUM Hey Asch, it's Kaneis. You there? (21) April 23rd, 2013 SHEENA FUJIBAYASHI Mithos is here. (13) February 3rd, 2013 There are 0 unfinished conversations.

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OOC Note: Please do not use teletype font, the mun's computer makes it super tiny and hard to read. Thanks!

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[wilder]

[...]

What?

Why...can't you? Don't tell me you're thinking of staying.

[pactfulfilled]

I...guess I'd be lying if I said the idea hadn't crossed my mind. We still have some time left, and I'd like to use that time to make preparations and to do what I can. But, no, I'm not staying. There's someone else I have to protect, and I can't do that if I remain in Exsilium.

Besides, Sophie'd kill me if I left her "babies" behind, so between them and my gear, my hands are going to be kind of full...

[wilder]

[That's a relief to hear, he actually lets go of a breath he didn't know he was holding] ...Good. I would've said no if you were trying to do something like that.

[And then rip you to shreds verbally and possibly physically too]

But alright, I got it. I'll help get them on the ship.

*Sophie's disappointed look would kill him I shoulda said.

[pactfulfilled]

[The answering syllable isn't quite a laugh. It's too sad for that. After a beat he manages to pull himself together.]

Thank you.



And if there's ever anything I...

['can do...']

[The offer sounds so fragile after the powerlessness of the past few weeks, Asbel doesn't have the heart to finish.]

[wilder]

[He picks up on that frailness, the weakness. It...hurts to hear, honestly. One thing that had always endeared him slightly to Asbel was...how much he reminded him of Lloyd. The guy who never gave up, who kept trying no matter how many problems were stacked up against them...even if things ended badly for Zelos, he still believed in Lloyd.]

[But if this guy, who was so much like him, sounded this close to breaking, to giving up- what did that...]

[....]

...I'm sorry.

[It sounds like a heartfelt apology, even though it probably doesn't make a lot of sense. Even he knows it doesn't make a whole lot of sense. But he's always caused problems, always been the source of trouble. It...was easier to think that way]

I've always attracted trouble for the people around me. So...maybe this...this whole thing, is something I did.

[pactfulfilled]

[Okay, that's got his attention. It's honestly one of the things he least expected to hear from Kaneis, in this particular manner, and he's not even sure what he's trying to apologize for.]

What...? Why would you think such a thing?

Kaneis, you've done nothing but help us. You've been looking after Sophie practically since she got here, and I know you've done plenty for others. For Emil, and Cheria, and Allen, and the people at the clinic. [He could maybe list more if his mun actually stalked enough of your threads.] You even took the time to explain things to me when you had no reason to bother.

I don't know what occurred in the past, but you're not the cause of this. You shouldn't be blaming yourself for what's happening.

[wilder]

[For just existing, really. Sure, he knows somewhere that it's crazy and illogical to feel like he's the one to blame- but it was the easiest answer. He was a failed Chosen that should have never been born, should have never been resurrected and all he seem to do was cause problems or attract misery for everyone. His parents, Seles, Sheena, his roommates...no matter how many people he seems to "help", things just seem to get worse and worse]

[He wants to argue with Asbel, make him see that yeah- he's nothing good to be around. But...he's too cowardly for a fight. Not ready to face any demons (he never is). And so he gives a small, tiny weak laugh]

Ahahaha...yeah, maybe you're right. [you're not]

Sorry, maybe all the stress of this is starting to get to me. Make me think weird things, you know? So...don't worry about it.

[pactfulfilled]

[Asbel does know. But he also knows that those "weird things" he starts thinking whenever he himself has been pushed to the limit are usually his deepest and darkest concerns. Even if some of them are illogical, unlikely, even stupid, it doesn't make them any less true. If Kaneis is saying stuff like this now...it's probably something that's been at the back of his mind for a while.]

It's not a matter of being right. I'm honestly glad you're around.

[Yes, even when Kaneis succeeds at being obnoxious.]

...And you're definitely not the only one who's feeling a little crazy right now. Hang in there, okay? I don't know what'll happen moving forward... But we'll find some way to fix this. We have to.

[wilder]

[.....ASBEL WHY ARE YOU SO WEIRD HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND YOUR WORDS. What is with people and being glad he's around?? Are you nuts?!]

[Zelos of course, handles it the best way he can, by completely ignoring it and hoping it won't come up again]

Heh heh, yeah I will. You hang in there too.

[pactfulfilled]

[Not the last time he checked, no.]

[But he'll let it go for now at least. They've got jobs to do, after all. And whatever effect this exchange has had on the fictitious friendship lobe in his brain, Asbel's sounding a little less unsure of himself.]

Okay, I'll do that. See you, Kaneis.

[wilder]

[Nope you're clearly nuts]

[But hey, he notices that less unsureness going on there. That's something at least]

Heh, yeah. Seeya later.