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You free to talk?

[Fortunately, Kaneis doesn't have the slightest clue what Halloween is, so he's around to answer]

Sure. What's up?

I think I finally know how to tell you.
About the problem with my element. If it still matters.

Yeah?

[He can't see it, but Kaneis straightens up in his pilot seat some]

If it matters to you, then it matters. So what is it?

[ it's strange to read that, and he's resistant to internalize it. no, it doesn't. since when was that true? jeez, what a dork... he doesn't understand what he's saying. ]

I'll call instead. I don't know if I could type it all out.
It's not the shortest story.

[Shut up and take it Riku, goddess]

Alright. I think my crew's out doing...whatever. Should be alright.

[ nnnever

after a moment or two, riku does call, though he sounds a little hesitant; ]

Hey. [ deep breath in. ] For the record... I haven't really told anyone about this.

[ aka i'm trusting you you douchelord ]

[When the call picks up, there's the sound of Kaneis shutting the door to the bridge, and making sure it's locked- before walking back over to his pilot's chair. You know, just in case someone decided to come back early]

I figured that much.

[GONNA IGNORE THE TRUST HERE!!]

[ accept the trust light damn it

he pauses for a moment or two before; ]

Do they have possession in your world?

[No.]

[And there's a pause there. Oh hahaha he already is unsure about where this is going]

...Rarely. But it's not unheard of.

[ he inhales before exhaling, measured and intent. ]

In my world, you have to open yourself up to the forces of Darkness to be possessed. Darkness is... pretty powerful. Most people can't control it, and they end up turning into monsters and losing their hearts because it overwhelms them.

[ a moment; ] Not the organ. The... your emotions, your self, kind of.

So like your soul, then.

[He's familiar with the idea. Even if darkness didn't quite work like that in his world - it sure sounded familiar enough to the final stage of Angel Toxicosis for him to get the idea]

[ he breathes in and exhales. ]

Yeah. [ ~~because he doesn't know what unversed are lalalala~~ ]

... when I was fifteen, I didn't know any of that. I just thought the Darkness was powerful, and that it could help me protect the people who mattered to me. [ there's another pause; it's kind of hard to say, somehow. ] But the guy who possessed me in the end--Xehanort, he just told me that I'd get stronger.

Just turned out I was playing into his hands. [ he clears his throat. ]

[ quickly-- ]

I didn't know to control it back then, I'd hurt myself a lot... and by the time I forced him out of me, it was still too much for me to handle.

Like I said, most people can't control it... so there aren't really many teachers that could teach me how. I've had to find out how to control it on my own.

[NOPE HE DOESN'T LIKE THIS STORY AT ALL. But he stays quiet and listens. He manages to keep his tone even when he speaks.]

...I can see why you'd be reluctant to use it after all that.

[ YEAH GUESS HOW HE FEELS ABOUT ALL THIS

an exhale. ]

I just don't want to hurt anyone because I didn't know how to control it. But you can't learn how to do something without trying...

...And there's part of you that's scared that if you try, you could hurt someone too.

[It's said evenly. Neither accusatory or concerned. Simply...stating an observation.]

[ there's a moment before he exhales. he's trying very hard not to let this talk affect him; even so, his voice is strained and small. ]

Yeah. That's it.

[There's a pause before he speaks]

You can use other elements, right? Magically, I mean.

That's the weird part. I can, I know the spells... but I don't think they work here. I tried to cast Fire, but it never sparked.

Every elemental spell I learned, I can't do anymore. It's weird.

Hmm...I've heard of other people's powers being limited here. Mine haven't, from what I can tell- guess you got the short stick.

But that's not really what I mean.

What did you mean?

Well, you see- where I come from? Darkness is just considered one of the eight elements of mana. Sometimes it gets a bad rep, but it's not really good or evil. I mean- there's downsides to it, and you do have to make sure to keep it in check - but that's no different from any of the other seven.

I mean, yeah- I get you have a bad history with it. That someone hurt you a lot with it. That'd be enough to scare anyone off any element. I can really understand that. [He thinks of Sheena...her fear of lightning after what happened with Volt. It took a lot to get over that] And I don't expect you to get over that completely anytime soon....if ever.

But...you can't treat an element like it's a rabid dog you're terrified to step near, then expect it to listen to your commands. They don't work that way.

[ there's a moment of silence--and riku knows he's right. he can't get any better at controlling his darkness if he doesn't try to control it. but using it feels... wrong, especially by itself. it feels like slipping into the past, even if he's just trying to get stronger. ]

I know.

I guess... [ he hesitates. ] I've been too scared to make another mistake. But not practicing just makes it more uncontrollable... I think they call that a self-fulfilling prophecy.

[ his voice lightens. ]

Where do you even start learning how to control something without letting it take over you, when no one's done it? If there was just one person who wasn't evil, that'd make things a whole lot easier.

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