exsilium ☼ IC Contact Post ☼ 2014

[wilder]

"You've reached Kaneis Major. Leave a message and I'll get back to you.
If this is a medical emergency, please consider contacting the clinic instead."

"Really, I mean it."


2013

OOC Note: Please do not use teletype font, the mun's computer makes it super tiny and hard to read. Thanks! Also have an image source

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[wilder]

[Let's go with a chair at the desk!]

Really?

Well...I guess that depends. What happened?

[debtor]

I promised her I would help her. That I would be there for her.

But I left. And when I came back, I didn't go to find her, or even let her know. [ that probably really wasn't the right thing to do, with a kid who believes everyone is going to leave her in the end. ] She found me instead.

[wilder]

[....Oh crap a trust issue. The kind he's worst at.]

So now she's really mad at you for that. And....you want to know if there's anything you can do to fix that?

[debtor]

Yeah...

I asked her if there was any way I could make it up to her, and she said there wasn't. [ he runs a hand through his hair. ] I'm worried about her. I don't want to break my promise, but I already have, haven't I?

[HELP HIM, ZELOS-SENSEI. WHAT CAN HE DO...]

[wilder]

[YOU CAN...ASK SOMEONE THAT ISN'T ZELOS-SENSEI. He's rubbing the back of his neck because ugh, talk about a subject he knows so little about. He didn't trust, and people didn't trust him. But now he's supposed to give advice on it?]

Uh, yeah....sounds like you did.

[Crap, okay. He can do better than this. Think, think, think - think about your own crappy experiences. He gives a little sigh and drops his hand]

I'm not sure that's even...something that can be fixed by one gesture. Broken trust isn't easily mended. Especially for someone who doesn't trust easily, like her.

[debtor]

[HE KNOWS HE HECKED UP... but his shoulders still slump with Kaneis says it.]

I don't expect to... fix it with a single gesture like that. But do you think it could be mended at all?

[wilder]

I dunno...that depends...

[On a lot of things.]

...Why do you want to mend it?

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[debtor]

[What kind of question is that.]

She's my friend.

[debtor]

She thinks I don't care about her anymore, but I do.

And she thinks she's better off alone, but that's not true, either.

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[wilder]

[And that reasoning sounds enough like Lloyd's reasoning for not leaving him alone, that he can't help but stare for a moment. He then puts his hand on his forehead and gives a self-deprecating smile as he talks to himself]

Ah, I'm gonna regret this....

[wilder]

[And then he'll lower his hand and look over at Allen.]

Well, if you really believe that...then maybe you should stick to it and act accordingly.

[debtor]

[Regret what, Mr. Zelos?]

But - how can I do that now?

[How can he be there for someone who doesn't want him around??]

[wilder]

By...being stubborn and keep trying? Or stalking- I dunno. I'm not exactly an expert on how to earn trust.

[Seeing as i have...none]

[debtor]

[...]

You think I can earn back her trust by stalking her...?

[Think about that for like five seconds, man.]

[wilder]

Well- maybe not to the level that Howard stalks, but you know- be around!

I dunno! It's just what people from my world seem to think works! I tell them go away, and they keep coming back until I finally give up!

[debtor]

[...Huh.]

Really?

And you became friends with them after that-?

[wilder]

[...............]

I'm not answering that question.

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[debtor]

You're the one who brought it up!

[debtor]

[ ah. ] But I suppose you wouldn't have mentioned it if it hadn't turned out that way.

[Gave up and befriended your stalkers, eh?]

[wilder]

[Nope nope he regrets ever mentioning it and isn't addressing it! The last thing those people need is ammo]

Whatever...

Just...try to be there for her! Even she tries to shove you away. She's a kid that's been through a lot, so it's not like she can really think in a bigger picture what's better for her.

You get what I'm saying?

[debtor]

[He stares down at his knees.]

I get it. I guess I'm just afraid she'll only... shove harder.

She's a stubborn kid.

[wilder]

Ah...yeah. That rejection thing can be pretty nasty.

[It was a huge reason why he didn't try, half the time. What was the point in reaching out to people if they'd only push you away?]

But hey...what do you got to lose by trying?

[debtor]

[She might stab him in the spleen.]

...Mm, you're right.

She already thinks the worst of me.

[wilder]

[Allen you've already been stabbed three times by weapons bigger than her. A spleen stab you can walk off]

That's the spirit! Great thing about rock bottom, it's really hard to make it worse.

[debtor]

[He still wouldn't enjoy it!!]

That's one way to look at it.

But you get along well with her, don't you?